Today I feel better. Matt texted me, because he wanted to, and asked if I would drive 3 hours tonight to come visit him. UH NO! I went off on him. I asked him if his girlfriend Lisa wasn’t available so he had to call the side girl. I told him he can’t just talk to me whenever he wants and ignore me the rest of the time. I AM A HUMAN BEING! And I am not supposed to be used like a doormat. I told him it wasn’t working and that he was not a true friend or anything to me anymore.
Of course he responded with his patented response of….NOTHING! Hes a pussy as far as I am concerned. He can’t even stand up and say shit back. He knows he is wrong. As do I and now, the rest of the world.
I’m glad its off my chest. I don’t normally like to flip out on people like that but sometimes it happens when you have just had enough.
I’ve been in a weird mood lately. I’ve been struggling with some buried emotions as well as being mad at Matt and also worried about my court date coming up on Tuesday. I have been letting all of this affect my emotions and my days. Once all of this is off my plate it will be nice to sit back and relax by my pool and smoke a Black & Mild. It will be nice to enjoy my summer a little bit.
It’s summertime, time to get real!