Roxie Carter

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Thu, 07 Jul 2011 23:54:20 -0400

SNAPSHOT SUNDAY I watched The Happening yesterday. It’s...

Sun, 22 May 2011 17:47:00 -0400

SNAPSHOT SUNDAY

I watched The Happening yesterday. It’s hard to believe that the plants wanted to kill off the humans. WEIRD!

I took this picture in New York in Central Park, where The Happening’s first attacks started from the plants. Therefore, this tree helped in the killing spree.

Isn’t it beautiful though? :)

Hey!!
Nice you know you liked my post enough to reblog it. Thanks you, it means alot :)
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Sun, 22 May 2011 17:38:06 -0400

Anytime girl! Your stuff is really good! I will be happy to reblog it anytime :)

Thanks for following me! I just started out, so I really appreciate it. :)

have a great day!

"Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you..."

Sun, 22 May 2011 00:27:15 -0400

“Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one who gets burned. - Buddha”

Anger gets the best of me

Sat, 21 May 2011 16:02:28 -0400

Today I feel better. Matt texted me, because he wanted to, and asked if I would drive 3 hours tonight to come visit him. UH NO! I went off on him. I asked him if his girlfriend Lisa wasn’t available so he had to call the side girl. I told him he can’t just talk to me whenever he wants and ignore me the rest of the time. I AM A HUMAN BEING! And I am not supposed to be used like a doormat. I told him it wasn’t working and that he was not a true friend or anything to me anymore.

Of course he responded with his patented response of….NOTHING! Hes a pussy as far as I am concerned. He can’t even stand up and say shit back. He knows he is wrong. As do I and now, the rest of the world.

I’m glad its off my chest. I don’t normally like to flip out on people like that but sometimes it happens when you have just had enough.

I’ve been in a weird mood lately. I’ve been struggling with some buried emotions as well as being mad at Matt and also worried about my court date coming up on Tuesday. I have been letting all of this affect my emotions and my days. Once all of this is off my plate it will be nice to sit back and relax by my pool and smoke a Black & Mild. It will be nice to enjoy my summer a little bit.

It’s summertime, time to get real!

In retrospection.

Sat, 21 May 2011 15:51:35 -0400

illiana94:

Everybody does ugly things. Some do it for the fear of the future. Some build walls for the regret they have. Some lie because they think they might loose someone they love.

Everyone has a reason for the ugly things they do. And once we know why, we can try to stop them.

Frustrated

Sat, 21 May 2011 03:42:39 -0400

Old feelings are coming out that I don’t like. Cooling off for the night.

Good night everyone.

Trust...

Thu, 19 May 2011 21:43:34 -0400

I know I have been speaking alot about trust lately. I guess thats because I feel like I can trust no one.

These past two years I have tried to connect with so many people but in my mind it seems people always are just using me for some personal gain.

All I want is to be loved really. I always feel like I am trying to prove myself to people. Friends, family, boys, everyone… I hide behind this shell of being tough, but really all I want is to be in a relationship like all of my friends.

Shouldn’t I be enough the way that I am?

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Wed, 18 May 2011 00:49:27 -0400

Relationships are Meaningless...

Wed, 18 May 2011 00:46:33 -0400

Matt, the guy who I recently found out was back with his ex-girlfriend just imed me (classy I know) to ask me if I would like to come spend the night with him tomorrow. SERIOUSLY?! You’re iming me on facebook where it says your in a relationship - give it up!

Until further notice I don’t believe in trust or love.

Harry. One of the cutest, sweetest dogs I have ever met.

Wed, 18 May 2011 00:00:00 -0400

Harry. One of the cutest, sweetest dogs I have ever met.

Water with Style at J. Alexanders :) My mother and I enjoyed a...

Mon, 16 May 2011 21:14:00 -0400

Water with Style at J. Alexanders :)

My mother and I enjoyed a delicious lunch today! I reccommend the spinach queso dip to start, followed by the chicken pasta soup with a ceasar salad, then finish your wonderful meal with a hot espresso! My favorite part of the meal was the presentation of my Fiji Water. It was only $3, and you get two bottles. It was definately a good deal!

Waste of Time

Mon, 16 May 2011 12:19:12 -0400

So I have been on a free online dating site for about a year now. I enjoy meeting new people quickly and learning about peoples hobbies, jobs, where they live, etc. I just think its interesting. Plus, I like going out on dates with different guys. It somehow teaches me what to look for and what not to look for in a potential “serious” boyfriend, that is if I ever get one. Besides that its fun to meet new people :)

So I was talking to this guy “Tez” for a couple of days. He was really sweet, he was nice, polite, and even kinda cute. We had been texting for about a week now. Last night out of nowhere he asked me if I was talking to any guys. I told him I would tell him but I wanted to know why first. I really don’t like talking about other guys or girls when I am talking to someone - it just doesn’t seem right. But so he wanted to know because “he wanted to be the ONLY guy I was talking to.” Like he owned me or something. Right then and there I was like this guy is messed up. So I went on to tell him I was talking to other guys and that I was not looking for something serious I was looking for a good time and I was looking to meet new people. He kept badgering me and eventually said that I was a “Waste of Time” and that he wasn’t going to talk to me anymore. Like what the fuck?! Okay? We have only been talking for a week and you want to get married? So basically I told him to fuck off and that if he wanted a relationship it wasn’t going to happen overnight.

I just want to talk to people. I’m not looking for anything serious - in fact that freaks me out. I don’t feel like I could ever trust someone so much to be in a long term relationship and/or even get married. It just blows my mind. Apparently, he didn’t wanna talk because it would take too much time to get to know me and eventually I would have wasted too much of his time for nothing. Even at the very least he could have made a new friend, but once again it wasn’t enough for him.

Does anyone else have this problem?

Clear Head, Clear Mind

Sun, 15 May 2011 23:53:00 -0400

After I posted my last blog. I had the worst headache. They come and they go, and unfortunately migraines run in my family.

To soothe the pain, I had an amazing chicken dinner that my parents made and it was delicious. Then after that I headed over to hang out with some friends at Lyndsay’s house. Overall a good night. I’m flying high in the sky above the planes and clouds.

Its nice to clear your mind - to escape from the everyday bullshit that gets you down. I’m thinking more positive and I’m more relaxed.

Thinking on what I posted earlier. I do realize that people fight. But, that’s the only downside to love. You will get mad at someone, but what counts is getting over it, and moving on. John and Lyndsay do that - and that’s something to be admired. I fight with Matt but its over petty shit that I shouldn’t have to - like whens he going to drive out to see me, or like why is he so shady sometimes. But that set aside, I am done with him. But, I say that I mean I guess we will see.

Ugh. Feeling good! Going to lay in my bed and relax till the am. Calling it an early night. I will hopefully have some awesome dreams tonight :)

yeahhhhhhhhhhbudddddddyyyyyyy: Jorts and Jeggings. Combined!...

Sun, 15 May 2011 20:16:00 -0400

yeahhhhhhhhhhbudddddddyyyyyyy:

Jorts and Jeggings. Combined! Jorjeggings.

It’s like Burger King…you can finally have it your way!

All that Glitters

Sun, 15 May 2011 17:49:00 -0400

Today is my best friend Lyndsay’s 21st birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL!

So, this weekend has been filled with festivities. All day yesterday we had a girls day. We went to breakfast, went shopping, got our nails done, had lunch, and then got all dressed up to go out to Dave and Busters with some other friends. It ended up being a great evening had by all and I was so pleased! I had been working so hard to make sure Lyndsay had fun! And today I went to her family cookout. I gave her some bath stuff, a 21 year old Lolita glass, a new purse, friendship necklaces, and a pillow pet. The pillow pet is a purple unicorn named Glitter.

When I picked her up yesterday morning though - things weren’t as great. She had a big fight with her boyfriend John. He accused her of taking his money, when she didn’t and basically told her he wasn’t going to go out for her birthday and that he would call her the following day. I couldn’t believe this. I know if I was in a relationship and someone did this to me I would have said goodbye and that would have been it. I just couldn’t believe how disrespectful he was being towards her. I mean, is this how people act towards people they love? I definitely did not think so. But, eventually after hearing them argue on the phone off and on that day they did resolve their problems and he came out for her birthday. And all was well. THANK GOD!

But during the day she was crying, angry, sad….I felt horrible. It even upset me to the point where I almost cried. They have been together for four years - and that’s what she gets? A fight over money? A fight that makes her feel like shit on her 21st birthday?!

I realize that people fight and that they are okay now. But, maybe love isn’t everything it’s cracked up to be. Maybe it’s over-rated. Maybe its this wonderful thing everyone puts on a pedestal but really it sucks, like sex for the first time.

I don’t know. I guess I won’t find out until I know what love is. Maybe I will find out soon, or maybe I will never know. I don’t know whats in the cards for me. Only the universe knows. Who really knows what love is?

To Add To My Rant

Sun, 15 May 2011 04:58:00 -0400

I get on Facebook. I see something in my newsfeed from that guy Matt I have been talking to since October. He is now in a relationship. I have been gone for a week from school letting out for the summer and hes back with his ex. WOW! I love finding out through Facebook…its my favorite thing. Can’t people be honest?

Funny thing is, hes been trying to get me to come over and get in his bed…great. What a great guy!

If there’s any good guys out there…I’m definitely available :)

WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE INANIMATE OBJECT?

Sun, 15 May 2011 04:50:46 -0400

PILLOW PETS

The Beginning...

Sun, 15 May 2011 04:40:00 -0400

My whole life has been filled with drama…I mean, who’s hasn’t? But recently, things have gotten really crazy.

I love boys. I love meeting guys, dating guys, and apparently getting rid of guys? I seem to have developed some “good luck charm” (or maybe not) for guys who date me. In the past two years, a guy named Nick, who already had a kid is now married to a 17 year old and has a new baby, a guy named Collin is engaged, a guy named Chris is engaged and has a baby, and a guy named Kyle is married with a baby on the way. These are all my ex-boyfriends. Only one of them had I dated for more than 6 months. When I look back on my track record, things don’t seem to end well for me. I am currently single. The one guy who I still talk to I have been speaking to since October and he and I don’t seem to have much of a future.

Now, don’t get me wrong, I love the single life! For awhile, I was meeting a new guy each week. I met a few guys online through some dating sites - but everyone seemed to be missing something I was looking for. So, still I am searching for my own, Prince Charming. (OH GOD!)

All of my friends have boyfriends and it gets annoying sometimes. I wish that I had someone to call to pick me up and cuddle with when I have had a bad day. But instead I am left to cuddle with my lifeless pillow pets. (YES I HAVE TWO! I am obsessed!) But, everyone says I will meet the right guy….blah blah blah…I mean yeah but when will that be? I seem to be playing matchmaker for all the guys I date!

Since all of these guys getting hitched so soon and close together I started to wonder, “whats wrong with me?” But I am forced to believe, for my own well being, that this is just a coincidence and hope for the best.

Maybe I am too confident? Maybe I am too bitchy? Maybe I just overlook everyone? I don’t know. But, hopefully I find out soon. I need to get out of this predicament!

Roxie Carter

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SNAPSHOT SUNDAY I watched The Happening yesterday. It’s...

Hey!! Nice you know you liked my post enough to reblog it. Thanks you, it means alot :) xx

"Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you..."

Anger gets the best of me

In retrospection.

Frustrated

Trust...

Photo

Relationships are Meaningless...

Harry. One of the cutest, sweetest dogs I have ever met.

Water with Style at J. Alexanders :) My mother and I enjoyed a...

Waste of Time

Clear Head, Clear Mind

yeahhhhhhhhhhbudddddddyyyyyyy: Jorts and Jeggings. Combined!...

All that Glitters

To Add To My Rant

WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE INANIMATE OBJECT?

The Beginning...

Hey!!
Nice you know you liked my post enough to reblog it. Thanks you, it means alot :)
xx